the six ceilingless classrooms in the old gym are sort of driving some of us crazy, today I sort of had lay down the law with my last two classes of 9th graders. I'm not going to bore you with any of it though. Only that today we began the keep your mouth shut, raise your hand, and WAIT for a response before speaking!!! ha. oh my.
I decided on the way home from work that it was awesome moving from public school to college classes, and it's not so much fun the other way around going back to high school kids... I was pretty proud of myself calling 3 homes and telling them in my broken Spanish about why their kids had detention tomorrow etc etc.. blah
while discouraged and driving home today I was thinking yeah if I was killed in a car wreck right now, that's ok. a good life lived! but then I thought,well no one would even realize how ready I'd been when I died since it happened as an accident. ahh well. I guess the Lord will take me when He's ready anyway, once I've fullfilled His plan and all.. it may sound morbid because I keep it mostly excited and upbeat and hopeful and optimistic all the time on my blog, seriously, but today was just one of those days where I had to ask myself, why am I doing this again? how is this a service to anyone? what direction am I taking myself right now in life again? another winter, spring, summer, fall, repeat. single. live in my house. etc etc...
I spoke on the phone with the ex gf tonight about it and she made me feel better, telling me that yup, she thinks that all the time on awful days. We agreed that knowing where you're going after you die is a better place anyway, so why not want it and be ready for it form time to time.
HOWEVER!... I was happy again tonight to receive a call from a former student in NYC who did not have to return this fall to his Central AMerican country (where I taught him in 7th and 8th grade) because he got an internship in NYC with a very cool museum project going up in abhi dahbi (sp?). I'm so proud of him. not only that but a lamp he designed was chosen for an exhibit in Madrid this month so he's going in two weeks. all I could think of was how I want to buy him a size smaller of the same black hoodie sweater I got in TX for his trip! ha! anyway, that was a nice encouragement from God that there are still kids out there that still keep in touch with me from time to time.
you know what else cheers me up tonight. Burn notice reruns on my basic cable channel! Also listening to my Kabhi Khush Kabhie Gham soundtrack.
and in other technical news, I decided to join the pay-for-my-own-internet world today and got a bundle12 deal with ATT so that I'm getting internet with them plus free long distance and local etc... for a year anyway. I should receive the wireless modem MOnday... hopefully this will get me to grading the online class stuff more and not other less reputable surfing time.. :)